I still cannot figure out why but I think she really wants me to come...
I am stupid , yes I know...
I am not supposed to get involved with someone from work.
I am not supposed to get involved in some junior colleague.
I am married , and am not supposed to be taking interest in single girls.
Yet
I am stupid enough to have committed all three mistakes at the same time...
Its not that I am having an affair , its just a very odd friendship.
A friendship which now will slowly die
Because she has chosen another speciality and well in a couple of months she will but have forgot about the people and assholes she met here.
It is supposed to be the farewell. And I am supposed to attend.
Yet I lie to her , and to myself as I lie to everyone else to find a reason not to go...
I am not going on any trip...
but I don't have the courage ..
the courage to tell her ...
that I am BROKE...
I am broke financially
I am broke emotionally
I am broke physically
I am broke mentally
and
I am a lying bastard...
