Friday, April 25, 2014


Its strange … how one’s mind is slowly destroyed.

The human nature is strange. We have an appetite for more and more. We are never satisfied. No matter how much we have , we are never thankful.I now understand and know this through my personal experience. Am 29 and have got so much but am so greedy . I want more and more. More money , bigger house, better job , less work , less tension , more degrees. I am no better than my fellow man whom I like to criticize so much.

I don’t know if I am a coward or if it’s something that’s wrong with my head. All day I sit and have to listen to tales of how so and so got such a good job , got a promotion by using connection , by presenting fake publication and so on. All day I listen to tales of the rich getting richer and the poor in a never ending struggle to get rich. Lies , deceit and corruption all around me . All day people pretend to be busy and hardworking to please their bosses while being lazy and inefficient.

 I don’t know why I can’t do the same. . .

Friday, April 18, 2014


Its a saying that is often said when faced with pancreatitis.

Not the patients managed conservatively but rather the ones that get opened up either by mistake or due to inexperienced surgeons.

But when someone does it for no good reason?

For almost a month the poor old man has been on a ventilator in the ICU.

He had presented with abdominal pain and his amylase was raised though not markedly but still enough to merit ruling out the threat of pancreatitis.

He walked to the operation theathre as he didn't want to be wheeled in ( something very common here).

Onto the table he went with a smile and on his own.

But then chalky white deposits all over in the abdomen and a grossly swollen and edematous pancreas left nothing to be done but to close him up.

He went straight to the ICU and has been there ever since. . .

Why was he opened? Something that I don't know I think correctly about ...

their desire to get free early ? and my failure to speak up ....