Life . . .

Life is indeed strange.

It is strange and funny to see how I am reacting to my talented junior ! I am feeling the same contempt for him that my seniors felt for me! Though they were and still are far more vocal in their approach I tend to follow the approach of a sleeper cell : quiet and deadly.

But I intend him no harm. It is just amazing to see the emotions I feel and how the positions have switched!

Whats more is that I have learnt that in life the people who make a lot of fuss go way further than those who do their work with honesty and dedication.

Those who moan on every little hardship tend to have a easier path than those who tend to bear their hardship.

Probably our own fault that we continue to bear the injustices!

I think I deserve what I get !

I am a total failure!

Although I work hard as hell I fail to do the tasks which count the most !

Not only I ruin my reputation , they also set me back from getting bigger tasks!

I seriously need to examine what the hell is going wrong with me and why others whom I hold in contempt for not doing their work honestly and with dedication are doing so good !

Life is so unfair.

Despite working so hard for nothing , my efforts were not appreciated.

And to add insult to injury the guy who was given the reward didn't deserve it at all.

In fact it was he, who was responsible mainly for my suffering over the past 2 months.

And the criteria decided to chose him !

He hardly fit in the the criteria!

Infact he was the exact opposite of it!

Its just not fair !

I don't know how much more of this I can take !

Its been 8 months and my work is going unrewarded and unappreciated!