2nd Chance PART II

Read part 1 here.

Ever since I have considered that I may be given a second shot at glory a string of unfortunate events has happened.

It is not like me to want position or power. But this time it was different. This time I actually looked forward to what benefits this opportunity may  present to me.

But sadly a sting of calamities have happened since then which have totally devastated my standing in the eyes of my MENTOR.

I really think I am no longer going to even be considered for this anymore.

:(

Losing our humanity

Killing of any being , even if he happens to be a mass-murderer, should not be celebrated.

I strongly believe this.

How does it make us any better than the monster we killed if we also take joy in the killing of a living being ?

But sadly I believe we are losing it, losing our humanity. It has been a steady decline. But with death and gore on the idiot box 24/7 it is not long before we evolve into some kind of hideous creature visitors from another planet will have a hard time calling "intelligent life".

DONE FOR NOW

Gave my exam today.

Lets hope for the best.

Result due in a few days.

Return of Phobia II

The admit card for the exam just arrived.

In less than 1 hour I have gone from utter depression to ecstasy!

From the fear of failing miserably to being so damn sure of passing I didn't want to study anymore!

Return of Phobia

Its been a while since I felt this.

This sense of confusion. This inability to think straight and concentrate.

This weakness in my body , emptiness in my mind and pain in my soul.

God No! ! !

It is time for another exam.

Its been a while.

Almost 2 years to be exact.

But now with less than 2 weeks to my next exam, I am petrified.

I have a huge phobia of exams. And it leaves me near to death.

2nd Chance

I let it go once before too. . .

It seems fate has decided to give me another chance.


And it looks like I am going to take it this time.

Only time will tell whether I was right the last time or this time . . . . .

T H E D E A L

Many years ago , when I used to be a little boy I was taught about how we would be punished after death for our sins. How we would burn in hell for all the bad things we do today.

It was not something that was easy for me to accept.

I didn't want to burn in hell.

Still don't.


So I prayed.

Prayed very hard.


That I be punished for all my sins, not after death, but right here on earth.

Instead of hell after death I prayed for hell on earth.


Ever since that day , whenever I do something "BAD" it usually doesn't take more than 24 hours for me to get into some kind of wicked trouble.

Almost seems like my prayers came true.