At times when I am lonely I think what has become of my life?
I wonder if this is really what I wanted for myself?
I am nowhere , and the people who were nothing have reached great heights !
All my hard work , all my efforts ? Do they amount to nothing?
I am still there , but those who started out with me have left. Left for better lives . Left for greener pastures.
And I stand there, all alone , burying myself in my work to drown out my sorrows . . .
Woaha . . . it's been quiet some time since I last was here.
Nothin new. I am still the same miserable guy that I was before.
Seems like my life has become nothing but a series of crisis from which there is no relief. This blog is nothing but a memento of the depression that I face and fight constantly!
I shortly face an interview which could end my fruitless labour and provide me with money and security yet I have no preparation for it.
The more I try to prepare for it the more I become depressed.
Ah . . . self destruction again . . .
Demons . . my old demons . . . are back to haunt me . . . I shall fall . . . and the world shall laugh as always . . .
