Sunday, January 31, 2016


i cannot look directly at her 
and eye contact is hell
its like it is burning into my soul

she is in no way a physical match for me 
yet i love her smile and the way she moves

i love the way she talks
i so want to talk to her but i keep myself away

maybe its my mind playing games with me but i feel that she feels the same way too 
the thought that she will be leaving in a week scares me and makes my heart sink

i just want time to freeze
i make so much effort to spend time around her

yet i force myself to stay away
what the hell this is not supposed to happen...
i have already found the one !
how can this be ?
what the hell.....


i don't know.
maybe it is something wrong with me.
but i find that most people are selfish.
very selfish.
so selfish that when they love it is also selfish.
everyone wants to love so that they can be happy...
no one cares about the object of their desires... if it makes them happy or not?
if its love should it not make both people happy ?
how can you restrict the other person and expect them to conform to your desires to show your love?
i don't know. maybe its just me. but if you really love someone you should do everything to make that person happy....not to keep yourself happy...