Thursday, November 12, 2009

So lonely . . .

At times when I am lonely I think what has become of my life?

I wonder if this is really what I wanted for myself?

I am nowhere , and the people who were nothing have reached great heights !

All my hard work , all my efforts ? Do they amount to nothing?

I am still there , but those who started out with me have left. Left for better lives . Left for greener pastures. 

And I stand there, all alone , burying myself in my work to drown out my sorrows . . . 

Monday, November 9, 2009

Crisis to crisis

Woaha . . . it's been quiet some time since I last was here.

Nothin new. I am still the same miserable guy that I was before.

Seems like my life has become nothing but a series of crisis from which there is no relief. This blog is nothing but a memento of the depression that I face and fight constantly!

I shortly face an interview which could end my fruitless labour and provide me with money and security yet I have no preparation for it. 

The more I try to prepare for it the more I become depressed.

Ah . . . self destruction again . . . 

Demons . . my old demons . . . are back to haunt me . . . I shall fall . . . and the world shall laugh as always . . .