Sunday, May 10, 2009

Why Alive?

Man , I feel so lonely. So left out. So useless. So forgotten. 

SO insignificant. . . 

I got no real friends, no gf, no hobbies, no interests,no purpose, no journey, no destination, no life........

Wonder why I am still alive?

If I were to die today there isn't a soul to shed a tear for me.

Wow 25 years and I have got nowwehre !

Saturday, May 9, 2009

Finding Faith

"O those of My servants who have transgressed against your own selves, despair not of God's mercy. God does forgive all sins, for surely He is the most forgiving most merciful one." (39:53)

----The Holy Quran.

Strange isn't it ? How we need Allah. Sometimes when you have been away from religion for sometime you feel ashamed. Like an old relationship. You want to come back but you are afraid. I have been away for a while now. Reading the above just somehow makes so much sense. Back to religion. Maybe the depression I have been feeling for many days now is nothing more than my guilt.

Friday, May 8, 2009

Bad Luck

Boy , am I cursed or what?

It seems everything that can go wrong with anything I do has to go wrong.

I feel like a complete idiot.

It just took me 3 days to get done a piece of work which required not more than 60 minutes from start to finish!

And now of the 6 guys that I had submitted the exact similar applications for , guess whose comes back ?


God must hate me :(

Thursday, May 7, 2009

The Beginning

Ah , hello there . It has took me a long time to decide to finally start my blog. Been thinking about it for quite some time.

I'll be here often sometimes and then might disappear for a long time without any reason.

Hope you'll come to know about me with time.

There isn't going to be much of interest here I guess for ordinary people.

Just a blog about whats going on in my mind. . .